the colorful scraplife

the next 11th January, i will let someone gone. maybe he's not so important for me because we seldom contact each other. but i know he's the best one that i have ever had. he is older than me about 2 years. he's a religious. he loves his family very much. he has no doubt that someday he will be a man who makes his mom proud. he have studied in mechanical engineering for 1 year but he resigned because his passion in astrophysics. he spent almost 3 years for learning other language. deutchland is his priority. but he failed going to his dreamland cause he got sick. he has maag. acute. and then he tried learning other language. france. yes. he is going to france next month. leaving all the happiness here, will find his passions later. he was 4 years late to study in college, but he will pay for it absolutely. he will never answer if i ask "when will you come back?". because he did not know too. he promised to meet me once before he is gone. im just his little s...

case 1 the special one will be replaced by the one who always be there. case2 dont let the one who have just left you behind and dating another girls be in your side (again). it is not about love, but use your logic and think about your self-esteem. what will 'mean-girls' say? put your head up and your middle finger higher. case3 so, we are now in the battle to get who is stronger between us? or not? case4 they will be as one if they have the same fate. wont they? -karunika

“pagi sudah membangunkan ayam berkokok, kau belum bangun juga?” |”tentu saja sudah, mana mungkin aku membiarkan muka manis cemberut karena aku” “tak usah menyogoku dengan rayuan kaku mu itu, jangan kau sangka kepergianmu selama ini akan hilang bekasnya dengan kalimat manis itu” |”hey, kita sudah bahas itu berulang-ulang dan kita sepakat itu karena gengsi kita se-mahameru. Bukan salah aku sepenuhnya” “tidak. Gengsimu yang se-mahameru. Gengsiku hanya se-mahameru kurang satu langkah” |”hih, terserah kamu sayang, asal kamu mau menungguku yang akan pergi lagi dalam waktu lama” “kau ingatkan lagi. Mengapa kita tidak menikmati waktu seakan kita selamanya, anggap tak ada kepergianmu” |”tak usah bersedih. Kau cukup dewasa dengan menjagaku selama ini tanpa tangisan. Mengapa kau ragukan kuatmu untuk ku?” “karena kau disampingku dan akan tetap begitu. Dulu kau tidak disini, jadi aku tak peduli” |”yakin kau tak peduli denganku? Haha” “tidak usah menyebalkan....

Trapped. Trapped. Trapped. It was not enough being trapped in memories, then come again you, you, and you. Can I replace those you with them? Sorry, there are 4 you now.  You, you, you and you. And all of them are unconditional. They came in one time, unconditionally. I mean, I really amazed with this condition. The first you came, he’s still here and it is not special, giving attention, and he’s the one who’s caring me even just remind me to eat. No, I mean I don’t want having ‘something’ with him. He just need a girl to talk to, and maybe I am the 2 nd , 3 rd or 4 th but I am sure I am not his 1 st . 2 nd . how long it has been? 3 months? I don’t know, but I know it has been long time ago since you never contact me just to  say hello. Haha. I am doing fine here. And I stalked you sometimes, make sure that you already have a target for your next girlf. Is she a mechanical girl? Since you could not have this electrical girl? Kidding ^^.  It is good making ...

still in this department of electrical eng. universitas indonesia who want to be an electrical engineer? a lil bit depressed thinking that i have to face 2 experiments tomorrow morning, 8am for microcontroller and 10 am for control system eng. i wanna scream, cause there's no thing could make me happy. friends. yes absoulutely. make me strong cause we are in the same case now, struggling together for a reason. electrical engineer. my bad. doing things and regret . just let it go. but there is someone says "if you keep saying -let it go- , the world would not change". see? or someone else says "your efforts is the difference between the prays which will be real and not" and i keep wondering how can i make an effort without saying 'let it go' but believe that will be a situation when you could not do anything, except pray and saying it. haha sorry for my bad. take it as a joke :) -waiting for pizza hut delivery service kyaaaa.

i like express my mind to others by writing it on a sheet of paper or typing it on my gadget. it just like you can tell everything you want by writing. because sometimes you will be speechless in time when you were eye contacted with the person whom you talked to. it can be about everything, not only love, but also expression like birthday wishes, friendship or else. 2 years ago, I happily trapped in a small city w/ about 15 until 20 new persons for a month. stranger became best friends, the older became family. when i felt that i do belong to them, i just want to tell it personally. you know you could not be by all of their side. some of them are my closest. i wrote a letter at that time, the day before farewell party held and we will be separated. the letter was about my happiness and thanksgiving. suddenly  yesterday , one of them sent me the photos of my letters which i wrote 2 years ago. he said he saved it in his wallet. and when i read those words, i just feel like errggh ...

bahagia itu pilihan. perasaan emang gabisa diatur, tapi untuk sedih dan seneng itu pilihan. mungkin orang diluar sana kalo melihat dan mendengar cerita gue itu akan cenderung kasihan. padahal gue yang mengalami aja bahagia, kenapa mereka kasihan? yah jadi intinya gue bisa dikatakan stuck pada satu makhluk tuhan yang dimana satu tahun lalu bisa membuat gue memutuskan sesuatu dan bersikap lebih dewasa. tapi hubungan dengan makhluk tuhan ini cuma sebulan lebih dikit. kenapa? rahasia. hahaha ya intinya gabisa dilanjutin. awal-awal bulan pertama emang rada berat ya ngecekin chat history gitu gitulah. tapi bulan bulan berikutnya ini tuh kaya main games aja. gue ya kadang sedih, tapi banyakan bahagianya. kenapa ya? ya karena gue tidak memaksakan ini kepadanya gitu. gue terbawa angin mengalir. kalo ditanya ngarep apa engga? ya ngarep. cuma gak memaksakan. sekedar menghubungi seperlunya aja dan biasa aja. ngasih semangat, atau nanyain kabar, ya gitu gitu aja. gak setiap hari ngehubungin, nguc...

gue suka berkata-kata. maksudnya mengungkapkan semua dengan kata-kata. kata-kata yang dirangkai sedemikian indah, pake kiasan, majas atau apapun. tapi dewasa ini kebanyakan orang diluar sana selalu menganggap pengungkapan kata-kata ini sebagai kegalauan yang hina. apa yg salah? sampe kadang gue menahan diri untuk berekspresi. ya, gue memikirkan apa kata orang. dan pada akhirnya gue selalu terpana sama blog yang dengan lihainya berkata-kata. tanpa memikirkan apa kata orang. dan yaaa, beberapa kalimat disana mewakili rasa gue, yang kadang gue tahan jadi bisu. Bisa saja mauku terlalu sempurna. Menjadi orang yang kaupilih di antara sempurnanya sosok-sosok yang ada. Menjadi orang yang kaupilih untuk kauambil hatinya, kemudian kaujaga. Menjadi makhluk yang kaumau, untuk berbagi hidup selamanya. Menjadi orang yang kaupilih dan menjadi orang paling beruntung di dunia (surat terakhir seorang aneh) Aku seorang perencana. Itu tugas dan naluriku. Kamu, navigator andal paling manis y...

jadi ini mau cerita tentang beberapa hal sweet, yang pernah gue alamin. believe it or not, terserah kalian. 1. bersepeda nonton acara musik sampe tengah malem, pulang naik taxi mungkin sampe rumah dia jam 12 atau 1an. kebetulan motornya lg gak ada, jadi dia boncengin gue naik sepeda sampe rumah. rumah gue sama dia sekitar 15menitlah naik sepeda. eh ini sweet gak sih? hahaha 2. poni paling enak itu ngobrol berhadapan, ditengah-tengahnya meja. kadang kalo gue lg ngomong suka ga peduli sekitar, terlalu antusias sampe ga sadar poni gue berantakan. dan dia mungkin juga ga fokus sama omongan gue, spontan ngebenerin poni gue. wait......masih ga sweet? 3. emote peluk jaman banget deh emote peluk lagi ngehits di bbm. waktu itu status bbm gue "mau dipeluk..." or apalah something like that, itu juga dibajak. tiba-tiba seseorang ngechat dengan satu emote peluk. kebetulan orang itu juga mantan gebetan yang lumayan lg deket. aih ga sweet juga? 4. nyetir mobil tau kan...

remember the last time i wrote about joining the competition? and this is te result.... i have written all my test schedule on my white board in my room. there are 5 tests in this competition. ditulis dari bulan mei.  wallpaper tab sejak agustus nomer 4. karunika diwyacitta  sooo it was very amazing. the feeling when you took the first test, going to the 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and finally 5th is cant be described. no matter what happened from the first until 5th, i do enjoy this competition and being very grateful because of the result.  this chance will give me an ultra wide spirit to keep on learning about electronics, fulfill my knowledge, and be the best in this major.  i wont forget my goals which are being master in biomedical engineering or nanotechnology. see you in germany! amiiiiiinnnnn. -first post in september 

i was looking for some old photos in twitter and i saw my followers increase so i clicked the followers button and saw HIM! i dont know who he is but he wrote his bio with the words which is SAME as my bio. really copy my bio even the full stop. oh my GOD. he is dead scary.....and then i checked his following and found there were some of my friends. huh i dont care about you.  i wish it was just inadvertent. check this out this is mine here he is oh! i got a difference between those two bio. my bio : jokes. laughs. happiness. his bio : jokes. laugh. happiness. he didnt write 's' after laugh. lol -this is a joke

serious im 20 y old now and in the past 20 years i thought i have never become the serious one. i always face all the things which happened in my life kiddingly. i mean not serious. but just an hour ago, i got myself thingking about it. i wish i will be the one who act more serious than before. hahaha. not too serious but can take my role rightly. compete long long time since i took a competition. hmm forget the way how it feels join the competition. hahaha. but now, im here seeing my name in the list of one competition. yeah i wanna do my best here. i dont know sometimes i got myself full of spirit, sometimes i got myself lazy. i try hard to do my best here. lets see love being a girl who known as the lover one made me act like i do. searching my lover all the time, talking about love and all about it. hahaha. but sometimes i think i wanna be a girl who dont wanna force my heart looking for the one who is caring me a lot. yes, wise karunika.  goal life w...

i love rainbow the most. not only the color, the shape, but also the moment when the rainbow appears. the rain stopped and let the rainbow comes. so you know those color in rainbow make this blog and my life colorful rainbow cake waktu ulang tahun abang. and yes i bought this the clearest and most beautiful rainbow i have ever seen live my rainbow long dress not so bright but still colorful my rainbow t-shirt. brigther than the longdress my rainbow mukena. just a little but still rainbow colorful on the holy white my rainbow shirt, grab it fast in the shop cause it was the last only one rainbow shirt makes me look happier "everybody wants happiness. nobody wants pain. but you cant have a rainbow without a little rain" -unknown author "may your journey through life be vibrant and full of colorful rainbows" -harley king "dare to love yourself as if you were a rainbow with gold at both ends" -aberjh...

lg dirumah yangti. sepupu ada yg nyetel lagu. katanya pas buat gue. NIDJI-RAHASIA CINTA ost nya film 5cm. wahahaha iya bener juga sih. ckckck kadang lagu bisa bikin mood naik. apalagi yg pas sama keadaan kita. kaya ada yg dukung. trs tadi dimobil denger lagu juga. HIVI! -CURI CURI banyak juga lagu sedih dengan makna sama. tapi kalo bisa senyum-senyum bahagia kenapa harus sedih sedihan ya kan. nikmatin ajalah toh hidup cuma sekali. tinggal gimana kita menyikapi aja. sedih atau seneng itu pilihan, sob. -nika.citta

hidup itu harus seimbang. ada hitam ada putih. ada kiri ada kanan. saling melengkapi dan saling menyempurnakan. karena emg ga ada yg sempurna. itulah kenapa allah nyiptain makhluk berpasangpasangan. (adz-dzariyat ayat 49) i let you be the serious one, thinking all about the serious problem, the topic which you are interested in, making the solution about it, staring about technology, and all about your passion. and let me be the one who making you laugh, forget about the problem for awhile, giving work for your right brain, refreshing your life, creating jokes and happiness also. but it doesnt mean i dont support your passion. i do support all your hobbies, works, thoughts, and all about it. cause sometimes you have to be rilex, calm, and enjoy the life with smiles, jokes, laughs, and happiness. -kd, trapped in this crowded road. august 1, 2013; 21:07

hari ini perubahan status para mahasiswa tingkat akhir dari belum lulus menjadi lulus. kau tau apa yg terbesit diotaku ketika melihat haru teman2mu meneriakan kelegaan beban 4taun yg diperjuangkannya? hanya namamu. bukan hanya namamu, wajahmu, kacamatamu, peluhmu, kegetiran perjuanganmu, dan batik baru mu juga. lalu kau tau apa yg ingin sekali ku lakukan? bertanya padamu tentang status yg harusnya pun bisa kau dapat. tapi aku diam. hanya berpikir dan mungkin sedikit berharap. lalu aku bertanya pada temanku. ia pun tak tau. lalu kemudian ia berkata ia sedang melihatmu, sedang bersamamu dan statusmu belum lulus. masih menunggu nilai terkahir bak kereta terakhir yg kan mengantarmu memakai toga itu. lalu kau berkicau pada teman2mu di dunia maya. dan aku hanya biaa tersenyum melihatnya. melihatmu masih mendapat kebahagiaan kecil diantara kegetiran menunggu hasil. aku ingin berbincang. mungkin seperti si bisu jadinya. betapa tuhan ciptakan rasa ini padaku. luarbiasa. melihatmi berkeli...

bintangnya malem ini banyak banget. inget beberapa hari lalu atau minggu lalu nungguin bintang ga muncul muncul. sekalinya ada cuma 1 bintang. sadar ga sadar kita bisa bilang bintang itu jujur atau bahkan polos. dia tau semua cerita yanh kita ceritain, waktu yg kita jalanin, semua yg kita obrolin pas kita ngobrol banyak, bintangnya ga ada. pas kita ga ngobrol malah banyak. bintangnya tau kita melakukan satu kesalahan pas ngobrol itu mungkin, jd dia ngambek trs ga muncul. atau dgn kita ngobrol bintangnya jd ga berguna, trs memilih sembunyi. nah pas kita ga ngobrol bintangnya seneng karena kita ga melakukan kesalahan jadi muncul rame rame. atau dgn kita ga ngobrol bintangnya jd ada kerjaan yaitu jd perantara kita ngobrol. hahaha sotoy pisan. yaaaaaah tp intinya seneng banget malem ini banyak bintang dilangit rumah!!! -kar.diw-

tes tes template barwuuu nihh huehehe suka banget warnanyaaaaa...damai... oiya selamat ngabuburit semua! disini jam nya 5:38 -karkarkar

ini dia momen menjadi master of ceremony. berhubung sudah tak berhubungan dengan partner MC, jadi foto-fotonya di upload disini saja. mau tag di facebook juga ga punya facebook. yah walapun banyak blur nya tapi mungkin ini bisa jadi saksi bisu kegetiran dan ketegangan menjadi master of ceremony bareng yang baru kenalan H-1 acara. mungkin bisa membuat tersenyum jika diingat-ingat lagi. mungkin saja. but moment cant change everything  -karunika oya ada bonus pas didepan itb. hasil perjudian dengan waktu.  if it meant to be, it will be.

UASNYA SELESAI!!!! ALHAMDULILLAH semester pendek mikroprosesor dan mikrokontroler yg kurang lebih 2 bulan dan menghabiskan dana Rp 1.200.000,- SELESAI.... tinggal proyek. menjelaskan tiap step dr program mengubah bilangan desimal ke heksadesimal.....baru 5 halaman dr 20an halaman. MANGAT!! -karunika

because everybody is changing because the world is going around because the time is running im still here im waiting my sweat goes down in my face im waiting the time for giving up im waiting my body becomes numb im waiting you turning back just to say the start or only saying good bye because i would never push you because i would never let you know that im here because i just giving my respect to you, sicerely im praying to my god im letting whatever happened in His way im getting ready to face the reality because hope will never lost because rain will still falling because rainbow will always come after all the thunder -karunika happily ever after?

Wheels are turning; I remember when you were mine. Now just to reach you, baby I'd stand in line. But there's another world you're living in tonight. And there's another heart that's fading in the light. Don't want your picture on my cell phone. I want you here with me. Don't want your memory in my head, no. I want you here with me. Spent the summer just laying out in the sun. Time seems to move so slowly, When you're taking it as it comes . Maybe we were just too young. Your body was tan and your hair was long. You shot me a smile and my cares were gone. When falling in love filled my soul with fright. You said, “Come on baby, it'll be all right.” I must've been a fool to the bitter end. Now I hold on to hope to have you back again. I’d bargain and I’d fight. But there's another world you're living in tonight. Don't want your picture on my cell phone. I want you here with me. Don't want your memory in my head, no. I want y...